The house and health finally got the best of me and I decided to throw in the towel to avoid foreclosure. Been struggling with back pain and nerve damage in arms and hands for years. Should have been on disability 16 years ago but refused cuz I was only 31. Been a struggle to keep 2 jobs, 1 for insurance benefits, and one to make money to get by. Dr's have said I'm finally showing some signs of gut problems from all the meds I've taken over the years to mask it all so I can function and pretty much told me, at the end of the line now. Have these 5 surgeries or they quit treatment since everything else has been tried. In short, I need 3 back surgeries at 3 levels in my back, lumbar, thorasic and cervical which is my neck, then 2 rods shoved up my ass to my brain stem and weld them to screws in my verterbrae. Then a damaged ulnar nerve in my left elbow and moderate to severe carpal tunnel in both hands. They won't do all the surgeries at once saying I"ll need my hands to support weight with grab bars to recover which makes sense, they won't do both hands at the same time since I need at least one to function. So with 5 surgeries, and 4-6 weeks between each one, that's a minumum of 24 weeks or 6 months off work, and that's best case scenario. My medical insurance benefits require I work so many hours a month and have to pay $120 a month for them, so not working, I'd lose the benefits. They suck anyway. I've hit max payout 3 years in a row, so by August or September of any year, all the bills are on me and they piled up. Gonna have to sell the house, and file bankruptcy. Hopefully have some equity left over to start over somewhere else, get on disability and apparently might just get to find out how good ObamaCare works. And I damn sure hate that. I've never had a damn food stamp or welfare in my life and I'll have to depend on either the starte or federal gubment for healthcare??? So yeah, for now, I just keep eating my candy to function, get thru this move and get the house ready to sell and hope all works out in the end. :waytogo: